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but so sad...i'm feeling down now...ever wonder wat is "wat"..i'm not alone but i feel alone.though is no big deal but it just have some impacts on me. i felt lost..not knowing where to go..sometimes feel like there's really no meaning to hang on.i dunno.i choose to avoid and run away from it.not wanting to think bout it.hoping it will just go away on its own.things will change,perhaps.the thought of giving it up did come across my mind but i dont think he knows that.maybe he has been alone for quite some time.it's becoming or should i say is already a habit for good.well..i dunno..i really want to withdraw from it slowly.maybe putting a little less effort in it.maybe i will feel much better...and not so hurt...wat's wrong with us?wats wrong with him and wat's wrong with me...?happiness is really short-lived.but hurt can last a long time and maybe forever till the end of your life's journey...but i do hope what i am feeling now is just the result of thinking too much.i do think a lot when i'm alone...things i been thru made me who i am now.made me think and ponder a lot...true happiness leave me long ago eversince i am forced to think so much...not that i want but that's my life...what else can i do but to live thru it?