sometimes..
i couldnt help it..
but well,
i guess i'm better off than those wasting their time doing absoultely nothing.
and not even working or studying..
but it failed

to me
i could only blame myself for not studying hard enuff
though i really tried my ultimate best
i should have nothing to regret..
sometimes, i feel that i am contented with what i have now..
but somtimes i'm not..
always in search of
oh ya..
recently..
tt something

just recently

and the book is named

the life plan
to fill the

emptiness in me..
i read in a book..
when you fail,
understand why do u fail
and dun broods over it anymore
move on..
its all bout overcoming that feeling of "failure" in you..

i'm trying my best to do tt as well..
at this very moment..
mixed feelings and emotions growing.
hunger, (cos i skipped my dinner..haha)
fear,
disappointment,
lost,
sadness,
fatigue,
all that is negative.
its all in me now..

guess i should continue to try
and not to give up on what i want to do
no one
ya..dun give up..
really understands
how i feel
at the moment i can only rely on myself..
i seek no consolation nor understanding at home
all i get are wrongful accusations and endless of nagging and reprimanding...
what i did is always
wrong to them
and i dont see the reason why..



meanwhile.
mayb i should try to change my life for the better..

Forgive, forget and dun dwell on it..

10:57 PM